Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Wow did I have a blast in Dallas. I wanted to do something out of the ordinary and I rented a car and Drove to Dallas for Nationals. I know I'm nuts. LOL. It was a long ride about 17 hours. It was well worth the trip.
I stayed at the host hotel " the Fairmont" and had a wonderful time. I finally got to meet a close friend of mine who has been there for me through thick and thin.
here is my take on Nationals.
Do u really you really wanna know my thoughts on Nationals . LOL I'll be sweet Little girl I am. ha ha. I will say I was very amazed on the way the judges how the judges went on the judging. It was all over the place.
The lightweights I didn't understand that call at all. Middles I was happy as I love Tina Chandler and always have admired her package. The light heavies well this was up in the air. Kristy looked great of course was harder and very well conditioned. You know I was cheering for Elena as she has been a pro or a while now and she would be a great force on the pro sage. But getting back to the judging I think the majority of the group was softer and i always thought they judge based on he majority of the group. Regardless all of the ladies looked sensational and put on a great presentation.
Now the heavies is where i got thrown off. Michelle Neil was sliced and diced, dry to the bone. She brought her A game. Kris Murrell was Massive, conditioned, and beautiful. Julia Stamper was also like Michelle Neil and had insane conditioning. Now I think her body fat was 3 % and she also gained more size since USAs. Talk about impressive. She should have placed higher. IMO Its Nationals and again we never know what they are looking for on that day.
Now there where some ladies up there that I had to question on "how in the world did they get qualified and Had they even heard of a clean balanced diet not alone cardio?". I know it may sound mean but when you are on that stage, you are competing among the best in the nation. On top of that you are representing the rest of us fbb athletes. Again not trying to sound mean but it is the biggest show on the national level, and i think some of those girls could have represented themselves better. Well thats my 2 cents.
Monday, November 5, 2007
I went to St. Augustine to talk to Tim Gardner as well as cheer some Team BodyTech athletes and a few other special people like Chris Eaddy who got me my win at the 03 Excalibur in CA, and my very good friend Ellen Woodley.
After the prejudging I met Dan Ray finally as we had talked alot via the Internet. Dan was very laid back and way cool. Then he introduced me to the 'Big" Kris Murrell who reminded me of a Barbie Doll with muscles. I have always admired Kris as she is big, symmetrical and pretty and that makes a bold statement in FBB. It was a real treat to be spending the day with these two. I didn't have much to do after the show and she invited me to hang with her and Dan. It was very sweet of her to offer me that as i was a complete stranger. Kris was very hospitable and made e feel right at home. She offered to take me and Dan to get something to eat, she even offered me her chicken and sirloin steak. LOL! As I know some that don't share ha ha
I had a real blast as we all talk about competitions, competitors, how she got started, etc. Dan was really funny and had some pretty interesting stories lol. He was telling about some of his MANY photo shoots for MD, and unique characters that he has met at some of the contest. ha ha. He is such a big time sport guy too lol. We plan to do a shoot next week in my off season state ...lol. Well I have to mention that Kris has this cute toy Chihuahua named China. I swear she must have weighed less than 2 pounds ha ha. She is the perfect watch dog lol. China is so smart and boy she has a bark on her. ha ha. I would like to get a toy dog but I am afraid my Bulldog could hurt her/him. She can be so rough.
Lastly I want to mention that Kris Murrell is very passionate and hardcore in bodybuilding and its people like her and many others that put a positive impact on the sport. AS yes she has a terrific package but what really makes her shine even more is her personality and attitude. I'm sorry but I just couldn't get over how massive she is. ha ha. She is going to amaze alot of people.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
I may not be competing in Nationals, but I am still going to support my friends. Elena Seiple is one to watch in the light heavies. As we all know with the awesome line-up and also Steve Wennerstrom getting a recognition award. You can find out more here http://forums.musculardevelopment.com/showthread.php?t=12888 . Also I am supporting my other friends like Al who competed in the light heavies and came in 2nd. He was on the money and I really think Nationals is his for the taking. He has great genetics. Also There is his training partner Galina who won her lightweight class at the USAs. She has a complete package and definitely a favorite. In the heavyweights Michelle Neil is certainly bringing it. I like Kris Murell as she has a nice shape and great look plus her posing is off the charts. Another person who will definitely be tough to beat is Julia Stamper as she always has FLAWLESS conditioning. I am sure she will be a threat!
Monday, October 29, 2007
"The spirit, the will to win, and the will to excel are the things that endure. These qualities are so much more important than the events that occur." -- Vince Lombardi
“What does not kill me makes me stronger.” --Johann Wolfgang von Goethe (1749-1832)
"Dream lofty dreams, and as you dream, so shall you become. Your vision is the promise of what you shall one day be; your ideal is the prophecy of what you shall at last unveil." --James Allen
I am a very lucky individual/athlete. God has blessed me with great genetics and has created a path for me to follow. This path is bodybuilding. It grew on me over time. When I was younger there where times when I wanted to stop, but I didn't as I loved what I do and would not trade it for anything in the universe. Its a blessing to have the genetics that I have. Of course I am a baby in this sport and still have some muscle maturity to gain. But that comes in time. Each year my body gets better and better. I work very hard at trying to perfect my body at its full potential. My goal is to come in as a heavyweight with a total package. Mass with class....lol.
Unfortunately I am choosing not to do Nationals. I made this decision a few weeks ago. Its not in my best interest right now. Or I should say its not what I want. What I want is USAs in 2008. This is what has been on my mind. I cant tell you how confident I feel about this show. There's 7 months to go. I start my diet next week. I had a great conversation with Tim Gardner the other day who is very dear friend, Dad like Figure and Coach. We talked for a good hour and half on this decision and what can and will be mine next year. I also had a wonderful conversation with the greatest Historian of the sport Steve Wennerstrom, who is getting a recognition award in Dallas. He has been covering female bodybuilding for 30 years. WOW! Anyway, i am blessed to have the opportunity to meet so many wonderful people.
On my goals as you know last year I weighed 134 lbs at the North American. This year I gained so much size it was crazy. I think if I would have done what I had originally planned to do the USAs I would have weighed in between 155-160. Next year, I will be totally awesome, and competing as a heavyweight where I belong. I love my muscle too much and will not sacrifice it to drop down a class. LOL
I know the potential I have when I step on stage. Lets just say next year I will be one to watch, as I am bringing the best I can. I know that their will be doubters and that's fine. I am doing this for me and not for them. People will always talk. So let them. LOL. It makes my work more fun. No worries on my part. I have a mountain of positive energy on my shoulders. I will be happy to share my positive sunshine rays. :)
“In life you can never be too kind or too fair; everyone you meet is carrying a heavy load. When you go through your day expressing kindness and courtesy to all you meet, you leave behind a feeling of warmth and good cheer, and you help alleviate the burdens everyone is struggling with.” -- Brian Tracy
"Sunshine is delicious, rain is refreshing, wind braces up, snow is exhilarating; there is no such thing as bad weather, only different kinds of good weather." -- John Ruskin
"Everything I need to know is revealed to me. Everything I need comes to me. All is well in my life." -- Louise Hay
Lastly, God has blessed me with a great friends and fans who have supported me in whatever I do. God bless you guys. As you have stood by me through thick and thin.
I will be back on Cam in my off season state as of tomorrow on herbiceps and Ft video.
SO be around for that. I will give you guys an update on my weight in a few days. But I did enjoy my Birthday finally. Yesterday I went to Bahama Breeze and had the Dulce De Leche Cheesecake which is off the charts. :) I was a very happy camper.
Next week I will be in St. Augustine for the All South. Which is the last National Qualifier in Florida. After Thanksgiving I will be doing some traveling. New York In December. I will be attending several Pro shows next year. And of course I am going to the Arnold Classic. But anyway I will keep you posted.
I am going tot be doing some lifting/training video clips for members and of course for You Tube. :)
I will be sure to keep you posted next few days. Oh and i do have good news as we are in the process of moving the gym to a bigger location. We are getting way too many clients, and its time to move forward. WE have a location in mind that in a great area where there is alot of good traffic, and they are building a huge Super Target right across the street.
Anyway, time for me to go and have a fillet Mignon and some mashed potatoes loaded of course :)
Love you guys
Saturday, October 27, 2007
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Saturday, October 20, 2007
Tomorrow I am going to Universals Halloween Horror Nights. http://www.halloweenhorrornights.com/ I may be a little pussy cat going to this place tomorrow as they really know how to scare the crap out of you. Oh yeah Leather face from the Texas Chainsaw Massacre will be there, and he freaks me out...BAD! I remember watching the older versions of the movie and I would have horrible nightmares where i wake up screaming. Gives me the willies thinking about it. I am going with my sister, so we will both be scared out of our minds. haha. Well actually I probably wont be that scared as I am a HUGE horror film fan. I am a huge fan or gory. I used to collect Fangoria. Which is a horror magazine. One of my favorite holidays is Halloween. The last horror film I saw was Wrong Turn 2 which was better than the first one Wrong Turn. I also saw Dead End which was okay but not my cup of tea. I am waiting on Hostel 2 as I havent seen that yet.
Training has been awesome.You can make alot alot of gains if you focus and concentrate on feeling the muscle. Some people fail to do this, and wonder why they dont get results. Form is also very important. You have some people who try to lift heavy wait WITHOUT A SPOTTER, which is a big no no as you never know what can happen. So to be safe always have someone close by. Anyway yesterday I was watching this KID do a heavy bench with no spotter and he was barely and I mean barely getting the weight up the bar looked like it was about to flip over based on his imporper form. I got scared for he guy as I have seen some nasty injures from benching. Luckily he got 3 painful reps out and stopped. Another thing to keep in mind is always wear a training belt especially if your doing squats, dead lifts, etc. You want to protect your back at all times.
Anyway, I have been trying some new techniques and it seems to be working. I am looking forward to Nationals. I just want to compete as it is fun for me and I love what I do. Cardio has been fun as I have been watching movies. One I liked the most is the Transformers. Ever since I was a kid I loved watching Transformers, Voltron, He-man, Thunder Cats, etc. I used to build tree houses and climb trees. So I guess you can say I was a bit of a tom boy. LOL. Now I am just super girlie with a lot of muscle. LOL I collected the transformer toys too, and I always loved Optimus Prime. Micheal Bay did an awesome job with the movie. I loved the Camero, and now I have my eyes on one of these babies as it would make a sweet ride. Nothing like a muscle girl in a sup up muscle car.
Okay I am on my way to the gym. Pray for me LOL.
Before I forget I want to say thank you to everyone for all the wonderful birthday wishes as I have had lots of friends and fans send me wishes. It is so thoughtful and sweet!
"A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are." -unknown
"This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life." -unknown
Monday, October 15, 2007
Before I go I want to share some pictures of some people who are a very big part of my life. I never really talk about my family. Here are some pictures of me and sister Erica. She is 13, and we are so much alike in many way. I love her very much. Also in the pictures is my grandmother who means alot to me. I was not raised by my mother but by my grandmother. At the time my mom was not able to take care of me as she had some personal issues going on. I was lucky to have my grandmother take me under her wing. WE have had our disagreements here and there, but she has always been there for me through thick and thin. She is my best friend and I love her with all my heart. She is raising my sister Erica too.
Monday, October 8, 2007
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Wednesday, October 3, 2007
I arrived to Body Tech, and immediately feel in love. What an amazing training facility. I felt like a kid in a candy store. Didn’t know which piece I wanted to try first. Howard has lots of unique pieces. By far it’s a bodybuilder’s dream gym. In Orlando, we have the big name gyms like Gold’s, Bally’s, La fitness, but they are not bodybuilder friendly. Now I see why everyone says the people at Body Tech are like family. Everyone is so friendly and polite. Again in Orlando, and a lot of places I have been to, people tend to give me the death look. LOL. I just put the hater blockers on and do my thing. I am so in love with the gym haha. I think I might move here J
Now when I made my way to the back of the gym where Howard has this huge juice bar set up. There was a girl in a sports bra and posing bottoms. She looked like she was ready to step on stage today! She turned around and it was Britt Miller. What a beautiful girl and what a body. I am not going to give away too much but WOW, I am inspired. I feel so fat around her ha-ha. Britt Miller is bringing her A game. Way to go Britt!!!!!!!!!!!!
I finally got the opportunity to meet IFBB PRO Carrie Ledford Baldwin. Her website is http://www.okfiregirlz.com/ . She walked in with her gallon of Sugar Free tang and her “save the drama for your mama” t-shirt, and Victoria Secret “Just Pink” sweats. It was great to finally meet her as we have chatted online several times. I just found out she is Native American Indian which explain her beautiful features and terrific genetics. We chatted for a little and then it was onward to train ***drum roll*** “LEGS”! I can’t tell you how excited and thrilled I was after a very long day at the airport and then having very little food to eat…lol. I thought I was going to get a break. Was I wrong…ha-ha! So Big Daddy H took me through the workout. I am not going to go through too much detail as some of you already know and some of you just have to come down to OKC and see what training is really about. Ha-ha. I was not a happy camper as I could not move my legs AT ALL. During my exercises I saw flashes go off, and I thought the workout was playing with my head. Well it was Carrie taking surprise shots of me with my game/pissy face on! I was in sooooo much pain! I told Howard I had to puke a couple of times and we still kept on training. LOL. Well it finally happened I had to run to the bathroom and puke my brains out! Never have I done that before. Carrie was awesome as she stood by and talked to me about the training and made jokes. She was also helping unload the weight which was very sweet. Well she had told me her best friend and fellow firefighter IFBB Pro Sherry Smith was coming by the gym Tuesday. I was very excited t meet her. We did the North Americans last year where she won her pro card and looked absolutely beautiful and flawless. If you haven’t seen her website check it out because the design is awesome. http://www.sherrysmith-fbb.com/
Before I left the gym on my first day, I had to do my posing with the posing artist and Britt’s main man Joey. I was a bit scared to see what he was going to say about my posing as I know it needs a lot of polishing. Well he looked at me and made some adjustments, and what a big improvement. He made my physique pop out even more. It’s amazing what you can do with a little hand positioning and feet placement. Now I know why is known as the best posing master.
Monday, October 1, 2007
My flight was to leave at 7:20 am. I got to the airport at 5:30am. I walked up to the ticket counter gave the lady my confirmation #, id, etc. Well, she tells me that I need my buddy pass. I am like HUH???. Apparently it was the pass that my friend gave me to fly. I also needed to bring it with me the day of flight/check in. I wish she would have told me that in advanced. I got annoyed as I hate it when things don't go as planned. I looked around for other flights which where about 700.00 a ticket. I didn't care paying that as this is something that is for my best interest. But something told me to be patient. I missed my flight and the other option was to go on the 10 am flight and not get into OKC till 3pm. The other problem was my food. I didn't bring much with me as I had planned to be in OKC around 10 45 am. Now I don't get there till 3pm. SO I have to try and survive haha. Lets say I feel really great, especially only getting 3 hours of sleep haha. Security was fun too. AS many times as I fly I don't have problems..today I did. lol. The TSA guy looks at my ticket and says to me "you have been randomly selected". For a minute I thought he was going to say "you have won a million dollars" and of course the balloons, and confetti will shower down, etc. In my dreams lol.
So I get searched, and my bags get searched. I took my jacket off and i am wearing a short tee shirt. So then all eyes pop. the TSA guy that was searching my bags was very nice and made me feel better as we talked about the Olympia and the placings. You know I cried when Ronnie was talking and everyone was going nuts. I am a huge fan of Ronnie as he has come a long way and made the impossible possible. God bless him. I also cried when Joe Weider came out with his wife Betty. He is sooo sweet. I'd give anything to turn back the clock and body build in that era just to be around him and people like Joe Gold. Sorry I just had to say that real quick.
So anyways,I found some good protein sources like eggs and chicken breast. I wasn't going to let my muscles starve. Its bad enough i was sick for a week lol. SO 10 am i get on the plane and go all the way to the back as in Southwest your not assigned seats and you can choose where to sit. I'm in a great seat, and then this lady sits next to me. Okay I have no problem with that. But she then had this huge cooler which she tried to get under the seat and obviously it was too big. Then she complained about it. In my mind I wanted to blow my top, I was cool and made a joke with her about it. So then she puts a whole ton of her stuff in the middle seat. I got mad but still kept my cool. I passed out and woke up later on. Then i saw the flight attendee walking around passing out drinks. So I was hungry and got my chicken breast I had bought at the airport. It was horrible. haha :P Okay so the lady next to me starts talking to me. She asks me if she can have my crackers and peanuts. I was like I'm sorry what did you say...lol. I have been passed out, and have no idea about crackers and peanuts. She then looked down and I saw in the middle seat peanuts and crackers next to all her bags of food. I said you can have it. Man, she grabbed that bag of crackers so fast. haha. I thought that was funny, as she had all these other foods she was eating. I thought I was hungry.
Well anyway, I am here in Houston and will leave shortly for OKC. Right now I could been training already and getting my ass kicked around.haha. Good things come to those who wait. ;) I just cant wait to get to OKC
Saturday, September 29, 2007
SO I have 1.5 days before I leave on my long flight to OKC. I am very nervous, and I have no idea whats in store for me. Now for an update, for the past week I have been very sick. It started out with a cold and then a stomach flu. It was horrible. I couldn't hold food down at all. I didn't train or do anything for a few days. That killed me..lol. Lets just say I deflated real quick..lol. My weight dropped a lot. Okay enough of that. Well now I am getting better and my weight is picking back up, as I can hold food down again. I am going to train and do my aerobics today and see how I do. Being the die hard bodybuilder I am. I am frustrated as I lost a lot of energy and it will affect my workouts in the next couple of days. GRRRRR
But you know i am going to push myself to total failure and i will deal with the pain and suffering. As this is what I have to do. Howard is going to check my body fat, weight and see where I am. Not looking forward to that. lol.
not much longer till Dallas. 7 more fun weeks of pain.haha
Before I go, I need to locate my father. We lost contact a few years ago as we are not on good terms..haha. The last time I talked to him he was very sick. SO I have no idea how he is. he has been on my mind from time to time, and I just want to make sure he is okay.
His name is Frank Vasquez and he lives In Tampa, FL. He used to train at Golds Gym( I don't know which one). He is about 5'5-5'6, talks with a lisp, he walks with a limp, his age is around 48 or so. He is also a bodybuilder, has tattoos on his arms, dark complexion, reddish brown hair. He was also in the army for a long time in Germany.
I miss him a lot. If you know who he is please contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Its been a tough couple of days. I have been battling a cold and a bad sore throat. I have been drinking echinacea tea, and taking advil. I just have to fight it out. I hope it goes away soon. it seems like its clearing up, but today I absolutly lost my appetite and have been drinking alot of fluids. My weight has dropped alot in just a couple of days too. I guesss thats a good thing in a way....lol. 7.5 more weeks. 4 days till I leave to OKC.
Well today was I got some bad news from a friend of mine. She told me that her friend's daughter got killed in an accident Sunday, the day after her birhtday. I dont want to go into much details, as it really broke my heart. here is the link to the story!
I will keep this family in my thoughts and prayers!
Sunday, September 16, 2007
This weekend I went to Tim Gardner's "Hurricane and Typhoon Bay" bodybuilding contest. Tim Gardner is a great coach and trainer. Tim helped me out and he is such a great motivator. Tim has such a big heart and cares alot about his athletes. Its like where all family. It was so nice seeing him again after so long. i will be seeing more of him soon. You can check him out at http://www.bodytechonline.com/ Tim and his wife Brandi put together a great show. All the competitors walked away with a lot of goodies. The trophies given away to the competitors where the beautifully sculpted Neils Anderson http://www.nielsandersen.com/ss_bodybuild.shtml
I met a lot of wonderful people at the show and one of those was the very talented national competitor Diana Cook who won the Jr. Nationals this year. She has an incredible package and is going to have her pro card very soon. I got to hang out with my friends Marissa and her boyfriend Nick who competed in the middleweights and came in 3rd. We then went to Sam Seltzers Steakhouse and had broiled salmon which was sooooo yummy. LOL
My weight is currently .....none of your beeswax haha just kidding. Seriously though I am 176 lbs this morning. I know what your thinking..." she is a small fry".....lol. Well lets just say I have a few aces up my sleeve. Its so nice sitting back and not focusing on my weight for once . One of my aces is Howard also known as Big Daddy H or HHH. He has done some incredible transformations with his girls and they are all beautiful. I am not trying to knock anyone down but some ladies dont present themselves on stage the way a fbb should and they wonder why they place so low. But anyways, I leave to OKC in early October to get my training/beatings in....LOL. I have heard some wild stories about Howards training methods. I hope I will be able to move after my workouts They might need to call the ambulance or wheel me out of the gym..lol. I am looking forward to the transformation. Be sure to check out Big Daddy Hs site and his forum at http://www.thelaststronghold.com/ . Oh yes and my other aces I will mention later ...TBA :)
I want to give a shout out to Elena Seiple and her true love Brad. What a happy couple these two are. I am very happy for Elena, as this guy is "the one". It would be nice if NPC had a couples posing divsion in the national level as these two would be a hot item. Oh and want to say real quick that Elena Seiple has one of the BEST physiques hands down. It amazes me how catty some competitors can be with another competitor in the same class. Of course when you have a great physique like Elena a lot of girls would consider you a threat. So they become really jealous, talk crap and act very immature. It really annoys me as I too have had my fair share from some girls as well. Why cant we just act like a family and enjoy what we do and love. Cant we just get along people....lol. So to make my piont dont be hating and let her win what is rightfully hers ..the pro card. Thank God I am not in her class. :) Brad recently competed in a few shows and did very well. Brads physique is awesome, and he has a very tiny waist which is a big plus. Iam so happy for them both. DO I HEAR WEDDING BELLS......:) Check out her journal for pics of her man Brad from his recent contest the X-Calibur in South Carolina http://www.elenaseiple.com/journal.html You will be very impressed.
Congratulations to Lisa Aukland on winning the overall in the Atlantic City show this weekend. I also want to say congratulations to Joanna Thomas on her comeback, but I feel she should have been placed higher but thats my opinion. She is the one that taught me a few posing tricks a long time ago. We also went to Governor Arnold Schwarzenegger's Birthday party in Los Angelas a few years back. And I got to shake his hand. I didn't want that hand for months...lol We also went with IFBB Pro Mike Morris who got he Governators autograph on a napkin..luck guy
Friday, August 24, 2007
My friend David told me this morning how NBC is now auditioning for the American Gladiators.
He thought he would let me know as he felt it would be good for me to audition for. I personally think I highly qualify for a shot at it. I looked over the long application and pretty much they wanna know YOU, who u are, what makes you unique, Etc. Piece of cake as I am not like any other. My personality and background shine for me. I already filled out the application and now I just need to set time aside to shoot the short video clip. I just hope there is enough Isabelle to film for 5 minutes. I have some creative ideas on my storyline. Wish me luck on that. I will keep you posted. I have to admit, I am wondering what kind of physique they are looking for. Nothing against fitness or figure girls. I think this is a great opportunity for any female bodybuilder as it can create some great publicity and shine a great light on us. But I hope they pick a few muscle girls, and not just wwe diva style girls if you know what I mean.
Before I leave you I want to share something very funny that happened early this morning at the gym. You wont believe what happened to me. I was doing bent over rear cables and I was just going at it like a mad woman. Well this big muscle guy walks up to me and says "you have a huge tear in the back of your pants" I about died. SO pretty much the whole time I was standing there with half of my butts checks saying hi to everyone. LOL. I walked away and took my jacket off and went back and kept working out. I need to get my stuff done. But I was very thankful for him bringing that to my attention. Some people don't even bother to tell you. LOL
well I thought it was very funny and man I wish I had footage of it. It kinda reminds me of this one jackass episode or maybe it was in the movie where the old lady closes the car door and it rips her dress off and she is talking to people without realizing her clothes are off. it is so funny. Of course its not real its alot of latex and makeup. *wink. I should of acted like it was a hidden camera TV show when he told me about my huge tear in my pants.
here is my quote for my accidental mooning lol
Everything is funny as long as it is happening to somebody else. -- Will Rogers
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
- Oprah Winfrey
I am a professional, and sometimes we cannot control what happens in life. I say this because again I am getting negative attacks from people about USAs. Some people are viewing me as a joke, a flake, etc.. Well let me put it to you loud and clear. You can say whatever you want about me as I know what I can do and achieve when I put my mind to it. This goes for bodybuilding and my life in general. I get tired of being judged by people, and especially those who think they know me. Its bad enough my family doesn't support me in my bodybuilding and I love them to death. Personally I love bodybuilding and maybe I did make the wrong decision to not do USAs. But in my heart I think I did the right thing regardless. People can talk as much as they want but you wont knock me down. NO WAY!!! It only fires my furnace and makes me a better bodybuilder physically and mentally. Again not trying to sound cocky but I know what I got and what I can do *wink. I haven't put this much time in my body for nothing. Anybody can achieve anything when they put their mind to it. I am so happy that I have alot of people still behind me that believe in me and know what I can do. Thank you so much for your support! Now I just hope the judges will like what I got!
I think I am a fantastic bodybuilder/role model. I love going to shows and cheering on the people on stage. Sometimes I have even cryed when someone won, because I can tell how hard they worked and I knew they where the genuine article. Everyone can train and diet, but it takes alot more to be a successful bodybuilder. It comes from within. It takes alot of heart!
Nationals are 12.5 weeks away. Lots of great competitors and this is the show to do as everyone in a class wins a pro card. How sweet is that! Just wish it could happen at every national show *wink.
See you in Dallas
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Winner's Blueprint for Achievement
BELIEVE while others are doubting.
PLAN while others are playing.
STUDY while others are sleeping.
DECIDE while others are delaying.
PREPARE while others are daydreaming.
BEGIN while others are procrastinating.
WORK while others are wishing.SAVE while others are wasting.
LISTEN while others are talking.
SMILE while others are frowning.
Kids go where there is excitement. They stay where there is love.
COMMEND while others are criticizing.
PERSIST while others are quitting."
-William Arthur Ward
I have been doing web cam on herbicepscam.com and ftwebcam.com. I was very surprised at the amount of fans that came to see me being off season and all. I start my diet in a few weeks. Lets just say that I am changing a lot of things this time. I have been very fortunate to have good friends and great fans. Not trying to change the subject but I really would like some chocolate milk right now :)
Now a funny story. I was on my way to the gym, and well I got puled over by Mr. policeman. SO of course the first thing comes to my mind......oh great! well it wasn't exactly that but use your imagination..lol. So in my front passenger seat I have my cooler, my training gear, and my gallon of water. I had on a tank top and shorts. So anyway, the policeman comes up and looks at me. I give him the innocent little girl face, and was very respectful. I gave him my license and registration and he just gave me a warning. I was very surprised. But hey you don't see me complaining. I was lucky. So having muscle does have great advantages. *wink.
I have gotten a lot of things for being muscular, and it helps when you have a bit pf personality behind the muscle too.
Nationals, wow it will be 13 weeks from Saturday. I seriously need to make up for USAs and for 2004 nationals.
Before i end my blog, I want to say something. I am who I am and I am dam proud of it. I say this because I get tired of the negative feedback sometimes in the sport. I am in bodybuilding for the long haul. I want to take this sport as far as I can all the way to the top. I do wish I was born at an earlier age around the late 60s/early 70s then i could have seen all the great ones and been in one of the best bodybuilding eras. I am so thrilled that Muscular Development has been covering a lot of female bodybuilding. Now if we can get some female bodybuilders on the cover that would be great!!!!!!
I saw vacancy last night and it scared me. it was a good thriller but I think there could have been more to it. I also saw Fracture with Anthony Hopkins, that was okay.
Okay i need to take a nap. I have to be at the gym at 2 am. Poor me.
love you guys
talk to you soon
Sunday, August 12, 2007
I would love to meet Christopher Walken. He is such an amazing actor. I rented a lot of Christopher Walken movies courtesy of Netflix. I am having a Christopher Walken movie marathon. LOL. I love movies and I rent alot of them. It helps my cardio session go by easier as I am not ecstatic about cardio. I know some people who are just cardio addicts doing hours of cardio a day. I admit it is nice to do cardio in the comfort of you home. :) Seriously, just once I would love to have the opportunity to meet Christopher Walken. You can never get enough of him. So if anyone knows him, could you put in a good word for me :)
On a lighter note. After my blog posting the other day, I have received several emails from friends/fans expressing how they still believe in me and know what I can do when I step on stage which could be very soon. I cant tell you guys that when I receive emails like this especially the amount yesterday I take it to heart. It makes me feel so special and unique. I want to tell you thank you for everything.
Its Monday and today is my off day. Mondays are usually very busy for me as I have a business to run and plus school is starting very soon. Its crunch time for me.
talk to you later
Saturday, August 11, 2007
I know what you are thinking......"where have I been, and what happened at USAs". All I can say is this.....yes I looked freaking great in my prep for USAs. But let me tell you this, I made a good decision on not to do USAs. Trust me! Things do happen. I talked with world historian/photographer Bill Dobbins. I always like to hear his opinion as he is a very smart man and has been drilling my thick skull since I met him in 2003. He has taught me a lot of things about bodybuilding. I feel honored to call him my friend and have someone like that who knows and understand what us female bodybuilders go through. Anyway he has and always will inspire me through his wisdom. Plus just being around him and hearing the stories of back in the early days of the classic bodybuilders such as Frank Zane, Tom Platz and many others is just music to my ears. I admit I am a fan of the more classic bodybuilding going from Arnold's time up to the late 90s around the time of Dorian Yates, and Kim Chizevsky. Things have changed since then. Oh and I would love to watch the pose downs between Lenda Murray and Laura Creavalle.
To get back on topic, I tend to go on and on about this stuff. lol
Okay so I had a great time in Las Vegas. I stood at the New York New York. It was fun. Yes I did hit the slot a few times and won a total of *drumroll*......$49.00. LOL
Now I heard a lot of crap talked about me in regards to me going and seeing Vegas. What am I suppose to do ... lock myself up in my room and stare at the wall. I DON'T THINK SO!!!!!!
I love to make the best of things. I don't think about the negative I think about the positive. Some people need to get out of the holes they live in and stop worrying & being unhappy. You need to live each day to the fullest, and set goals each day. For example, saying hi to a complete stranger or opening a door for someone. Little gestures like that can have such a positive impact on people. For every action is a reaction. SO I was positive and had fun.
Oh and yes I did eat. One of my favorite places was HASH HASH a go go. This place was heaven. The flapjacks/pancakes where the size of one of Branch Warrens legs. We all know he has got some wheels on him. I loved the food. My favorite was the french toast as I am a huge french toast fan. I did stop by Cheesecake Factory, as my fans know I love cheesecake. LOL
The best buffet I had was at the WYNN. It was expensive but well worth the money I'd say.
NOW TO GET TO WHAT I REALLY WANT TO SAY............
I want to apologize to my fans and and my friends. I know you guys wanted the best for me at USAs. You will find that I speak truly from my heart. So I want to say that it really truly touched my heart when I saw the amount of positive feedback I got from people on the boards about turning pro. I cryed alot of times prior to the show because I never knew so many people cared about me and thought so highly of me like that. On top of that I never have got so many calls and emails like I did the day of the show. SO many people where so worried about me and very sad. I am soooo sorry. I seriously promise and I do keep my promises that I will make it up to you.
I admit yes I do very badly want to be a pro and maybe someday a future Mrs. Olympia. Please don't find me cocky, its just that I feel in my heart I do have the genetics and structure to go all the way. I just need to cross that line and get the first step which is a pro card and take it from there.
Bodybuilding has grown a part of me. I am very passionate about it and also I can be very competitive, as you have to be in this sport to survive. I just go in the gym and train and give it my best I can. But I want to say that one main ingredient to bodybuilding success is having a strong mind. You can achieve so much. I have seen a lot of national competitors be so cocky and not give a crap about the fans, etc. I am sorry but that's not my style. A true Pro is all for the fans and lives the bodybuilding dream. A great example is Jay Cutler!
My dream is be a Pro and further my career in Bodybuilding. Yes there is drama and negative comments in regards to FBBs, and the sport in general. It doesn't bother me. I know what I can do and achieve in the sport if I focus and set my mind to it. I love this sport so much. I do it because its fun and challenging. Plus I love the fans. You are the ones that keep our sport going. I thank you for that. Please don't stop loving the sport regardless of the crap you hear.
I want to let you guys know that I need to make it up to You for USAs and I will. I promise. I have a plan in mind, not 100 % sure yet but we will see. Some already know what I am talking about. I have been upset a little bit because people think they know me. Well they don't know POOP POO. I am full of surprises. I am going to take things into my own hands and do my own thing as I know my body very well or else I would not have made such great gains over the years. Again not to be cocky. i am proud of what I have a achieved and what I am. Again you will find that even though I diet for shows I wont blow you off, as you guys help me and motivate me. I am sorry that it took me this long though to write a blog. I needed to think and map out some things.
I do have to say one thing. What comes around goes around. LOL This is a inside thing to me, but it amazes how the heavies where placed at USAs. Geez Where would I have fit. Honestly I was 145lbs 5 weeks out to USAs. SO I would have been a light heavy. A big one at that. A lot of people are trying to get me to do the Nationals in Dallas. Which would be more challenging. All I can say is bring it on. LOL. For me it would be a good show because I need to make up for 2004 Nationals where I was on another planet, weighed in at 170 lbs, placed 9th and and looked like well a blob. i can be so critical. You know this is what inspired me to do the North American Last year.
Well its just a thought. What do you guys think about Nationals. Yeah or Ney? Sorry for the long long novel. But I have had you guys on my mind. I love you guys so much for believing in me and putting me on such a high pedestal. And to you others that just don't understand and talk the drama you do. I am going to be wearing my hater blocker sunglasses. You can say what you want about me, but know this when I do a show and step on stage again I mean business. And trust me I will give my competitors a run for the money. I just hope that judges will like my shape and the package I bring. Personally between you and I. I don't care who is owed a pro card, I am not going down without a fight. Believe that!
Okay love you guys and I will be doing some videos of me training hardcore and also I am going to be doing cam again on herbicepscam.com and Ftwebcam.com
Love you have a great weekend
Monday, July 2, 2007
I have a few tricks up my sleeve, have no fear. Some people think they know me like a book. To be honest you dont. SO please dont try to act like you know me. Again this goes to people talking about my physique, what class i should go in, how i should train, etc.
I just had to speak my mind for a moment.
At the same time, if people are trying to get information out of me. I take it as a compliment. I must be doing something right :)
see you in vegas
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
I don't go online very much as I did b/c I find around this time people tend to stir up drama and hype. I have no interest to be a part of that. So I decided to just do my thing and stay offline. Its better that way if you ask me. I sometimes wonder what would it have been like if the Internet had been available around the time of Arnold and all the great true bodybuilders.
Another thing that I want to say is this. It sickens me and aggravates me that society does not favor female bodybuilding too well. I say this because people see fbbs like me and its always dumb comments like women aren't meant to have muscle, she has veins popping out she is sick, etc. Get a life people. If I was 400 pounds nobody would care about it. But a girl having muscle is a big deal to most people. I don't care what you think about me or my sisters of iron. We love what we do or else we wouldn't be doing it. People have no idea how bodybuilding makes us feel. It is a mind,body, spirit thing. I have to say another thing I love this sport too much and it saddens me when girls are awarded a pro card, they do one show or they don't do any and you never hear from them again. We need girls that will do shows and keep going with it. They help keep the sport alive and fresh. We also need to show society that female bodybuilding is beautiful and we are the living art, well more like a beautiful anantomy chart. Our bodies speak for our selves and show our work. Anyone can lift a weight and call themselves a bodybuilder but it takes more to be a true bodybuilder. It is a skill and its all about the technique, and discipline. That's how you build a well development muscular body. Oh and you have to have a little bit of patience :)
On another note I joined another gym recently mainly because it is where I actually started my bodybuilding training. The cool thing about the gym is that it has old equipment. Equipment that you wont find now a days. Allot of Icarian, old lifefitness, cybex, Nautilus. Great smooth pieces. So Its in my benefit. Now I am a member of 4 gyms plus my personal training studio.
talk to later
Friday, June 8, 2007
Some people think veins are gross, well not me. I find them to be sexy :)
As you know i had problems in thegym with people bothering me. So I completely switched my routine where I train when NO ONE is around which is very early in the morning. I love it!!! its so nice to go in and not have to worry about interuptions. I also train at another gym away from the Golds Gym during the day. I walk in and people watch, and follow me. Its nice and all, but I DONT really have the time for it. I know it may seem harsh, but you have to understand my time is very limited. My diet is good for the most part. I get so excted when I have my carb meals, and dont let anyone come near me when i have my carb meal. I will bite your head off. i want to savor the taste and enjoy the carbs goin in my mouth. LOL I
lick the plates clean. hehe. Its nice that everything is going smoothly right now. I dont know where I will weigh in at. I am 158.5 lbs right now. and i think we still have 7 weeks or so to go. Not 100 % sure as I am not really counting. i am just staying very positive and following my plan. Here is some exciting news. I get to have a cheat day. YEAH!!!!!!!!
Be sure to stop by and see me at Herbicepscam.com and Ftwebcam.com. As I am there everyday to keep fans up to date with my transition.
Friday, May 25, 2007
Prep is good, I am trying to keep my weight up. I was 163 lbs the other day. I don't want to get to lean too fast, and this is something that I tend to do. On top of that all the pictures you have seen I have not been doing hardly any cardio. Only 40 mins a day. So I have been excited that I stood at 169-171 lbs. But since this week, with a minor change in diet due to Tuesday. I added in some more carbohydrates like sweet potato with cinnamon.......mmmmmm. It helped my weight kick back up. ;)
Training in gyms recently, I have been dealing with some distractions. I am blessed to have my own gym when I want privacy. I have the all the cardio pieces I need, great equipment and a lot of unique attachments fr those extra kicks. I can go when ever I want and I can wear whatever I want. So I can train in my pajamas if I want too ;). Which I have done. I even remember last year for te North American, I would spend te night there a few times just to make sure I get what I had to get done. That gym is my little deserted island. LOL. To get to my piont, I am always stopped in the middle of my workouts. People just want to sit there and talk to me. I dont think as many times as I have explained it do they realize the importance of every bit of my time in the gym. A couple of people got offended because I didn't give them the attention they wanted. When I go to the gym, that is my time to train and train hard. I have to be focused and most of all I have to give whatever it is I am training all of my attention. I have people walk up to me, for example, as I am lifting heavy in the middle sof my set or right when I got my game face on and ready to begin the exercise and they just stand there expecting me to stop. I used to stop, but now I have to do what I have to do. I keep going and tell them I will catch them later.
Then there are certain men in my gym that feel that women aren't meant to have muscles. So I tend to get those "who does she think she is" looks. It doesn't bother me what these people think of female bodybuilding. It is an art that is a remarkable sport. I am so proud that I am a part of it.
Be sure to stop by and say hi to me on Herbicepscam.com
Friday, May 18, 2007
Saturday, May 12, 2007
I have had alot of request for private chat. I can do a private chat where you can watch me pose and show my progress for my contest preparation for the show. I love fans and want to show them how much abodybuilding means to me. To show my passion I pose and show off muscular features and shape. You can send me a payment through paypal at email@example.com.
$20 mins for 50.00
Please send me a emai so we can set up a date and time.
And now my pictures from last night at the GYM.
By request i had some people ask for forearm and leg vein shots . Cant wait to see what the thunderstorm will bring in a few more weeks
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
If you think you know me, my physique, training methods, etc., THINK AGAIN!!!! LOL I am VERY competitve in anything I do, and if you want to turn pro in this sport you have to put in the time and the hours. I dont have time to sit here and worry about who is in my class, what my weight is, what so and so looks right now. I find it childish. What matters is that morning for the few minutes you get on that stage the day of the show. As for now I have to wait a long 10 weeks till that.
On another note..I am excited to be competeting in the usa's and it seems alot of other competators are excited that I am copmpeting too. All I have to say is I WILL be putting up a good show. AS I am hungry.
When I want to achieve something I put my heart and soul into it and go from there.
Here is the last shows I did with 3 successful and 1 that was my fault becuase I wasn't focus and not in my zone
2003 Excalibur- overall
2004 nationals -170 lbs 9th heavy weight
2006 Southern usa overall
2006 North American 1st light heavy
When I put my mind to something I do it. I look at my fbb competitions like the Olympics. I have to put alot of hours in and I have to give the best package I can.
I want to end saying that I am very passionate about this sport and I am hungry to compete on a Pro level. I want to say thank you again to my fans, frieds and family for believing in me and in my dreams.